On the Accountability of an Unpublished Writer

Yesterday, my sister asked me why I was writing so much during winter break.

I told her: “I have a deadline I need to meet.”

“You don’t have a deadline,” she said. “This is all in your head. You’re doing this to yourself.”

Her response was not an unusual one. But it got me wondering: what is the difference between holding yourself accountable and having someone else depend upon your accountability?

I tried to explain to her that the deadlines I have set for myself are no less valuable than the deadlines set, say for example, by an agent or an editor. They are the liability of an unpublished writer. If I do not see myself as serious enough to meet a daily word count or to revise a certain number of pages a week, how can I ever visualize myself in the professional world of fiction?

Especially as a college student, these breaks are the most freedom I have to pursue finishing my novel, HYMNS OF SALT AND TERROR. If I don’t commit myself now, I will be unequipped to manage myself during the chaos of classes and work come February.

Yes, this is all in my head. Yes, I am doing this to myself.

Because who else will?

© 2018 Stellular Scribe

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On My Hiatus and the Relief of Writing

To my fellow Scribes:

I know there are not many of you, and I know that what I post on this blog is not always top priority. Still, I would like to extend my heartfelt thanks to each and every one of you — for reading and being there and caring.

I’ve been on hiatus from blogging for the past few weeks for a couple of reasons. One: I had to take finals and graduate high school and the general amount of things to do and goodbyes to say became a tad overwhelming. Two: I really needed to take some time to get my head straight. My personal life is in a bit of an upheaval, and the stressful transition has not been gracious to my mental health. I’m sure many of you can understand.

The summer before my senior year of high school, I attended the Iowa Young Writers’ Studio, which is a writing camp that draws teenagers from all over the world. For my senior project, I wrote an essay about what I took away from that summer. Today, I would like to share an excerpt with you.



When my parents greeted me at the airport after IYWS, they wanted to know how I felt about the experience.

How I felt? How could I possibly explain to them how I felt? What I did? Who I met? I struggle writing this paper now because a part of me fears forgetting. I don’t want to forget what happened in Iowa, and writing about it cements the knowledge that it is over, and runs the risk that I will miss a detail that at the time, felt so important, so crucial. I want to do my experience justice.

I suppose how I feel is…relieved.

I am relieved that I am not the only one who prioritizes writing over sleep and social interactions. I am relieved that I now have a network of friends and teachers who will help me, honestly and often brutally, improve. I am relieved that there is a place where saying that you want to pursue a writing career is not given leery looks and paired with questions like, “Ok, but what are you going to do to, you know, make a living?” I am relieved that there are writers out there who can make a living and enjoy their craft for what it intrinsically is — and maybe they don’t make a lot of money, but they’re happy where they are. I am relieved that writing isn’t an unrealistic dream.

It might not seem like much, but learning and writing and reading with aspiring writers and established authors has helped restore a bit of faith in myself. I think that before Iowa, people had me convinced that writing is a creative hobby, but it is not a livelihood. It is not something worth studying or pursuing professionally. You do it in your down time, and don’t expect anything from it. A lot of people, people who I considered friends, told me that they admired my work, but didn’t understand why I would want to fork over college tuition to study literature and composition. My friends at home wanted to be physicists and doctors and engineers, professions that, in their words, “paid off.”

Now, I am going to expect everything from my writing. My pay off will be my own satisfaction. 

Attending the Iowa Young Writers’ Studio was a great, immeasurable relief.



Thank you, fellow Scribes. I am pleased to announce that my hiatus is over, and I have an entire summer’s worth of writing tips, poetry, and prompts ready to share with you. 🙂

It’s My Blog’s Anniversary!

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Marvelous news! Today is the two year anniversary of Stellular Scribe! It all started in 2014 when I was an awkward teenager (a fact that has yet to change), progressed into the dark ages of 2015 (where months would go by with nary a post), and emerged bright and shiny in 2016! I would like to extend my personal thanks to anyone who has ever liked my posts, commented, followed, or even just stopped by. While Stellular Scribe is first and foremost a labor of love and the number of followers or likes I get doesn’t matter, I appreciate each and every one of you.

On that note, I do have a bit of exciting news. This past week has been incredibly busy and I’ve had to break my posting schedule to make room for everything that’s been going on. On top of training for and running a 5k, I recently finished acting in my school’s production of You Can’t Take It With You, which went off without a hitch.

My big news, however, is that my novel was awarded a Gold Key by Scholastic in the Art and Writing Awards.

What does this mean? I don’t really know. I didn’t win the ultimate grand prize or anything, but I’m still incredibly grateful and can’t help feeling undeserving. What I do know is that this award has offered me the recognition I need to motivate myself. For the first time ever, I want to go for it, and I mean really go for it: editing, querying, publishing, the whole shebang. And if that doesn’t work, I’ll self-publish. It might take a year or two, but I’m determined.

My blog’s anniversary could not have come at a better time. I look forward to another year of reading, writing, music, and mayhem!

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. 🙂

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Welcome to the new Stellular Scribe!

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Huzzah! I declare this site arisen!

So, I’m a senior in high school and have been pretty much swamped with applications, testing, school, and extracurricular work for the past five months. By some miracle, that dark and lifeless  stretch of time has managed to accumulate 300 followers on this blog! Thank you, thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I do not deserve all of you.

In light of this glorious occasion, I have decided to get my act together and actually make some content that is not the random poem that I post at 2 in the morning every other week. That’s right, I’m making a post schedule — and I’m going to stick with it.

First things first: I’m sure you’ve noticed that this site has undergone a makeover. All of the artwork — the header, the background, and the profile image — are original works that I painted in Photoshop. If you are interested in looking at more of my doodles, you can check them out here.

Second things second: The schedule! I’ve done a lot of thinking on what kind of content I can provide for my followers, and I’ve narrowed it down to three days a week:


Mondays are Music Mondays.
If you weren’t aware, I have an account over at 8tracks where I make a lot of writing playlists. On Mondays, I’ll make a master post of great mixes for concentration, character archetypes, or just all around writing inspiration. If you are unable to access 8tracks, I will try to include a list of all the songs in the playlist so that you can go and listen to them for yourself, too! Along with these recommendations, I will write a little spiel giving my two cents on how to make time to write and relax while you’re doing it.

Wednesdays are Writing Tip Wednesdays.
I am by no means an expert on the English language or writing technique, but I have dedicated all of my energy and free time to writing over the past few years, and have picked up some helpful tips, tricks, and hacks along the way. On Wednesdays, I’ll share what I know with you — whether it be about voice, symbolism, character development, or subplots — and I hope that you can teach me some things along the way, as well.

And Fridays are Free-Write Fridays.
It’s exactly what it sounds like — on Fridays, I’ll post my latest poem, short story, or rambling thoughts. I see this as a great opportunity for me to grow and learn as a writer, and having a date on which to share what I’ve been working on will give me some concrete motivation to write even more!


I’m really eager to get started and enter into a new era of writing! Once again, thank you everyone for your support, for your likes, for your comments, for your follows. I know it might not seem like much, but it means a lot to me. 🙂

200 Followers!

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What started off as a rather mediocre day turned quite the opposite when I peeked at my follower count this morning.

What? I passed two hundred followers and didn’t even realize it?

While two hundred followers might not seem like a substantial amount to most, it might as well be two million to me. Can I even count that high? One, two, skip a few…ah, screw it. Two hundred trumps all!

More than anything, this post is a thank you letter to anyone who’s ever liked a post, followed, or even visited my blog. You might not know it, but every like puts a smile on my face, and every follow makes my day. I note and appreciate every one of you. You’re all lovely and talented people.

I joined WordPress with the sole goal to write, and have no intention on stopping any time soon. So if you like poetry, short stories, random ramblings and writing tips, I hope you’ll stick around.

Happy writing! 🙂

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Liebster Award Nomination

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Today my day was made ten times more spectacular when the very talented Miss Smoak of Secret Diary of an MD Student nominated me for the Liebster Award. Her blog is a haven of witty yet down-to-earth writings, and you should definitely swing on over and follow her. Thank you, Miss Smoak!

The Liebster Award was originally created to recognize and discover gifted new bloggers, and the word “liebster” even means “dearest” or “beloved” in German. I’m very humbled to have been nominated for it, and will go ahead with the steps because I think it’s a great way to bring new blogs into the limelight.

The rules are as follow:

The Liebster Award Rules

  1. Thank the nominator and post a link to his/her blog ✓
  2. Display the award on your blog ✓
  3. Answer the eleven questions provided by the nominator ✓
  4. Nominate 5-11 blogs which have less than 1,000 followers, and let them know they’ve been nominated ✓
  5. Make up and post eleven questions for your nominees to answer ✓
  6. Post these rules on your blog ✓

Here are the questions from Miss Smoak’s blog:

1) What’s your favourite live-by quote?

I have a notebook that I jot down all my ideas in, and when I first bought it I wrote a famous Victor Hugo quote on the first page:

Greater than the tread of mighty armies is an idea whose time has come.

This quote is really important to me because ideas are what shape the world, and I think that too many people keep theirs hidden.

2) What is something people would find surprising about you?

Hmm…that’s a hard one… Probably that I have a really sarcastic brain, but I keep to myself and am afraid to repel people so much that you’d never know just how snarky I am.

3) What’s your most precious childhood memory?

I have plenty, but the one that comes to mind is catching my first fish with my dad on Lake Winnipesauke in New Hampshire. Fishing was something my dad and I always bonded over, and my mom even claims that my first sentence was “Daddy caught a fish!”

4) What is your biggest fear?

My biggest fear is that I’ll offend people, which kind of goes hand in hand with question two.

5) Who is your all-time favorite character?

Seriously, that’s like asking me to pick a favorite child. I have favorite protagonists, favorite villains, favorite side characters, favorite original characters… But in the end I’m usually brought back to Luna Lovegood of the Harry Potter series. She’s quirky and otherworldly and funny and brilliant…and not afraid to be different. Which I know sounds really cliché, but it’s true.

6) What do you do when you need to cheer up?

I take my mind off the ‘bad’ stuff by writing, reading, painting, composing, crocheting, playing video games, etc. If that fails, then a steaming cup of tea and Doctor Who marathon usually does the trick.

7) A song you couldn’t live without?

My favorite song changes with my mood. At this very second, I can’t live without “True Strength” by John Dreamer. You can listen to it here.

8) Who is the person you trust most?

Don’t tell her I said this, but my sister. We’ve always been really close, and even though we bug the heck out of each other sometimes, I can’t think of anyone I trust more (besides my lovely parents, of course).

9) An event you’re looking forward to?

A lot of big events in my life have just passed, and things are pretty quiet for now. One thing I am looking forward to is the Doctor Who season 8 premiere on August 23rd. That might sound like I have no life, but…yeah, I have no life.

10) Which Jane Austen heroine are you most like?

I really had to think about this one! I’d have to say I’m a Lizzie Bennet/Elinor Dashwood hybrid. Like Lizzie, I have the ability to find amusement in absurd situations, and like Elinor, I am quiet and steadfast.

11) If you could start your life all over again, would you do it?

No, absolutely not. Considering that I’m young and still in school, there’s not much I can think of that I’d want to do over. I think I want to see what life has in store for me before I decide I want to start it again.


Ok, so here are five amazing blogs I think are more than deserving of the Liebster Award (and you should definitely check out):

  1. Real Girl; No Name
  2. word is bond
  3. mywordpool
  4. Through the Fog poetry
  5. Glass Half Fuller

And here are my eleven questions:

  1. If you could learn to do anything, what would it be?
  2. What would you title the autobiography of your life?
  3. At what age did you become an adult? (if ever)
  4. What question do you hate to answer?
  5. Who is your hero and why?
  6. If you suddenly had the ability to time travel, but only for one trip, where and when would you go?
  7. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
  8. What’s the most striking dream you can remember? Have you ever had a lucid dream?
  9. If you could have any super power, what would it be?
  10. If you could be an expert in any field, what field or subject would it be?
  11. Do you collect anything?

Once again, thank you to Miss Smoak for nominating me!

thanks dear